Not sure of anything

These past few weeks I've been thinking a lot, mainly because I haven't had anything else to entertain myself. I was in the car when I heard "100 Years" by Five For Fighting. That used to be one of my favorite songs...but that's one of the songs Mallory and I used for the slideshow that was used at Grandma Mattson's funeral. Ever since then, the song has been kind of ruined for me and I try to avoid listening to it at all costs. I've been thinking a lot about her ever since then, and I really miss her.

Another person I've been thinking a lot about lately, is Rebekah. I don't really know why, but just being around Sam sometimes makes me think about her, and wonder how different it'd be if she were here. I know I didn't really know her, but for some reason Bekah had a huge impact on my life, and I can't wait to meet her.

Being home alone so much lately has been taking it's toll on me. Sometimes I just get really sad when I think about Hannah. It's so different being the only kid left at home. I know I should be used to being alone after school by now, because I used to do it all the time, even when Hannah was here. But it's just the fact that she's not coming home with Dad anymore. This week--being finals week--has been particularly hard, because it's really different not to have Hannah here to help me study, or just to talk to when I'm worried about how I'll do on a final. It's kind of been a depressing few weeks, what with all this thinking, but I'm sure I'll be fine eventually.